My thoughts today

Hey all - I was doing great last week but this week not so much. I think it may be the weather and a couple of other things.
My family room TV is not working but hopefully Doug will fix that today.
My dog wants to run and play with me especially on the days that I don't feel like it. I yelled at her last night telling her I'm sorry her father isn't around anymore.
I need a new fridge. George and I talked about getting a new one. They are expensive.
I am going back and forth about the house. At first, I thought I had to sell it. Then I didn't because I was emotionally attached to it. Now I'm thinking about the HUGE yard and me being mortgage poor. I just happen to look at houses online the other day and there's not much out there for my price range. I need a house because of the dog. Otherwise I would consider a condo.
My house is a mess but I just don't feel like cleaning it which makes more upset.
UGH!!!!!!!!!
Thank goodness I have a therapy appt this Friday. Last week I almost thought about cancelling it because I thought I was doing much better, well I was wrong.
Gotta go.
Talk to you all soon.
Love,
Mrs. Dude

Hi - I want to tell you about a dream I had last Friday that made the day a WHOLE LOT easier. I had a dream about George and he came back but as a younger self. You know the time he had the beard and glasses(which I only know by pictures) but all the history is there. We were all at a party for something and he came walking in. Everyone was sooooo happy to see him. I snatched him up and we snuck out to be alone somewhere. He said he gave up smoking and he will take better care of himself. The dream continued after I woke up. It was a very nice dream. Then throughout the whole day he kept reminding me of the funny times we had together, the little pranks he pulled. The dream and the memories were happy that day but today they are making me cry. I am upset with him for not taking better care of himself.

Talk to you later.
Love,
Mrs. Dude

Hello everyone - someone asked me the other if there are any songs that remind of Dude. This song wasn't particular to us but it mirrors my thoughts.
Please listen to the words.
Have a great weekend everyone. It's suppose to be beautiful out.
Love to all.
Moing
Mrs. Dude

A rainy Monday tune for you

Not sure how this one will make you feel but it's been going through my head a lot lately...



- I miss you all and hope to see you soon. Moing. (forgive the indulgence) Much Love, 'nik

Hi all - it's Monday and we all survived another weekend without our Dude even though it was hard at times. For all those who didn't make it to the Tribute on Saturday night, I will post the video when they give it to me. It was very nice and went well. We had a good time and drank lots of VO and Ginger. Jon Allen said he should have ordered more. :-)

How are June weekends for everyone? I would like to clean out the sheds and garage. I need to get a dumpster. I know guys golf weekend is the 24th so how about June 12th? I will also send an e-mail so everyone can read.

Thanks and have a good week,
Mrs. Dude

Fridays

Hi all - I am beginning to HATE Fridays. I think Nik said the same thing. On the ride into work I relived March 26th again in my head like it was that day. I keep seeing George lying on the bathroom floor looking very peaceful and being very cold. Me calling 911, doing CPR, and the cops arriving to pronounce him dead. Before the cops get there, I keep telling George to wake up. 911 keeps having me do CPR but I know it's too late. I just wish with all my heart I was there when it happened.

I am in horrible mood. I am very short with everyone. Thank goodness it is a short day for me. I leave at 2:00 and then I go home and pick up the Lilly Dog, go pick up my Mother and then we are going to Dan and Ann's for steaks and cards. I hope this brighten's my mood.

Love,
Mrs. Dude

~On Friendship~ from 'The Prophet' - by Kahlil Gibran

'And a youth said, "Speak to us of Friendship."

Your friend is your needs answered.

He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving.

And he is your board and your fireside.

For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace.

When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the "nay" in your own mind, nor do you withhold the "ay."

And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart;

For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed.

When you part from your friend, you grieve not;

For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain.

And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit.

For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught.

And let your best be for your friend.

If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.

For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?

Seek him always with hours to live.

For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness.

And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.

For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.'

- something I wanted to recite in the church but didn't for various reasons - Chris